I have been quiet for the last few months.. I was pretty low & feeling sorry for myself earlier this year.
Last year I gave up the dream of ever finding a man & getting married. I thought this was my lot in life and so I was trying to get on with life and there were definitely times where I was at peace with this. I saw some people in relationships that were hard and I thought to myself ‘id prefer to be single than with the wrong guy or having to go through what they are’.
You see I thought that’s what the verse “unless a seed falls to the ground and dies it will not produce a harvest” meant, to give up & let the dream die.
Alone it is just a single seed and will never accomplish anything more. But if it’s planted and dies it becomes much more.
If I was totally honest I didn’t want to stay as I was – no hope, no faith in things changing and alone.
So I did the only thing I could and that was to pray and ask God to give me faith that my current situation would change, hope that it WILL happen and to trust God to make a way.
And EVERYTHING has changed and nothing has. I’m still single but I honestly believe it will happen soon. It’s like the darkness has lifted and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have a peace about it all.
Of course I still have my moments, but 95% of the time I am in a great space.
If you are going through a difficult time I pray that God would replace your sadness with joy. Your heavy heart with a peace that everything will be ok. If you’ve lost all hope that God would give you the faith to believe that better days lie ahead.
